Future

People chasing for their future, I am chasing for my dream. So, what is my dream? izzit my future? I am not very sure where should I go, and im not belong to this damn situation.
I am searching for those pretty dreams, those sweet and beautiful dreams that make me feel safe. Is that any? I don't think so. Sorry for my future, sorry for my dream.
And I am so sorry to myself who always don't know how to take care of myself, make my life miserable, dull and hopeless.
Sorry.
Where is the reality for ordinary aqua?

幸福-微甜=幸福是什么

瓶子要的幸福很抽象，也很梦幻。他们总是喜欢把自己的未来太过理想化，从而把自己捆绑在现实与梦想的灰色地带。其实有之后真的搞不清楚自己要的到底是什么，同时也迷迷糊糊地指导自己应该前进的方向是哪个；这种矛盾真的很让我困扰。

如果现在能躺在一片平坦且一望无际的大草原上，仰望星光闪耀的夜空，那会是我真的幸福？我很清楚自己是真的很向往那片情景，也很憧憬着浪漫的未来，可是现实生我的自己往往都比理想距离得太遥远。

再如果说，到北极圈看欧若拉，那会是怎样的意境？或许自己会无敌向往那些独特的风景，却没想到自己能如何去得到那些必身难忘的经历。

很多时候我真的不明白自己的心意如何，因为口是心非第一名的关系，我经常说谎。说自己经常口是心非，但又不是每一次都是那个鸟样，所以有时候连内心的自己都不能相信现实的自己，两者都有发生争执的机会。

有时候沿途风景会看得水瓶很累，总觉得欣赏是好事，观察是累赘，让自己的身和心疲惫了。要是自由受到威胁，瓶子肯定二话不说，马上进入心灰意冷的时代，然后总觉得自己真的是无能为力。

瓶子对爱情毫无概念，因为他们可以乱来。哈哈哈哈。这点本人不是很清楚。但是很明显的是，瓶子在一段感情中，仍然希望得到自由。如失去自由，就有可能会一拍两散。，

but horrr... 我现在想吃 Mee goreng mamak TT

Top FOOD wanted!

I am seriously carving for FOOD! omg!

Chicken rice.

Fish head meehoon.

Air Jagung.

Kuih belimbing.

Nasi Lemak

Rojak Mamak

Cendol

Hokkien mee

Prawn mee

Braised tofu

Ais kacang

Laksam

Nasi Minyak

PENANG LAKSA

Red bean pancake

Kuih talam

Thanks sources: from google.

I seriously crazy with those food! OMG........ TT

After a long time

Hello, I am here again. Still alive, like my stitch still here. LOL ... I don't know what I am talking about. I finished the drama. What the hell I was emo for whole day. 

And the song sang by Yoochun is so depress, make me cry like hell. I don't know I feel sad also, the drama just make me touched, sad, depress and cry for a long time.

I bought aromatherapy thinggy to relax myself. My job is so much stressed me up, but i think the real problem is other thing, money face mia meeee...

It has been a long time I din't write any article for my another blog, poor... I was thinkin of going for movie during this midnight, but the environment in johor just erherm... not that safe for me to go out alone.

hmmm... poor world. 

I found out why my face soap melted. ==" stupid me. I am just me, not weird. I love that song so much!

Share the hapiness

Hello, it has been a long time I din't update my blog. Seriously, update it with full concentration is very hard for me nowadays. I don't know why after I got this job, I have no mood to continue my article anymore. Sigh ...

And guys, I just want to try a new health drink, I want it makes my health perfect and well done! Hell thing is, I am damn broke... gosh ...

What to do? Who ask me spend money like a boss! Gosh ...

And I found out something recently. I am single and I am happy. Welcome friends and welcome love. I will not say no to any person who get close to me, just want to let they all to know, I am me, who likes play and laugh a lot.

As who just got their new life, hope that your life is blessed and full of happiness, joyfulness and also confidence. Because we are charming all the time as a special individual.

Dear friends, are you happy recently. Except worrying my dads' condition, I am quite satisfy with my life. Full with joy and the effff old Korean Songs wahahahaha... try to sit on my car, you will know the thing. It's kinda sad that I can't take care of my dear car nicely. It is full of dust...dust!!!

My occupation kinda complicated. I like it while I hate it like a ghost, chasing me all the time, even when I am sleeping. Sorry that I hate u but i need u. urghhhhhhhhhh

Am carving for many dessert, I had Black ball last night, and loacker  wafer today. Tomorrows' breakfast will be Maximo bread!!!! AHH~ Love it! Okay laaaa.. Will start again the weight management plan tomorrow, and continue untill september, untill my skin looks young!

I don't know why I keep concerning on my health. hmm.... not health, it's appearance. I have a very silly thought, I want to be more presentable, as the cosmetic surgery plans were already pop up. Opss... but I don't dare to do it. I am afraid of the pain and the feeling of hurt when it comes to my face or eyes. ARGH!

So I will forget  it. okay la... forget it.

Papa days just past, I hope Appa will be fine and health wealth all the time. Health Wealth all the time, he still need to watch 3 of his daughters success in their life, and get the greater hapiness for him also in the future.

(fuck off my english is poor like i learn nothing in my college. sorry)

Back to the lens

It has been a very long time I din't touch contact lens. What if I wear back the contact lens? Hmmmm...

I just tried out the new brands, before that I was using geo lens. I very scare the lens make me look weird, that's why I always choose the chocolate colour lens.

The arrived items just look fine, and the pattern are just like normal what I was wearing last time.

Just want to thanks the seller explain to me patiently.
PS: selca tonight! XDDD

Korean BBQ

Again, had Korean BBq with 3 other young reporters. It was a farewell dinner for my colleague. She got another offer from BERNAMA, he just like another work more than current one. 

Sigh... I am the newest reporter now, not her anymore. And then, I got a lot of weird thing happen on me. Like Christina said, like comedy story. LOL, yeah.

I just love to try on many many many clothes. But never buy them. And I was so suffer from seeing them waving to me. T____T

I tried on some style that I will never wear to go out. But amazingly looks nice.

And then, Goddess G.NA released her mini album. I just like and another one song so much. Overall of the album is quite nice, i like the songs. <3

And she has a very nice body. T___T

And, you know this? LV bag! I just love this so much! AHHHHHHH~

Wing in Black

Haloooooooooo... off day is just fine. But, I get sick. Get a cold after my sleep. T____T how come?

Runny nose is killing me, I think I gonna be VERY sick tomorrow. Ahhhhhh~~~~~ tired like hell. I miss my long hair suddenly, don't know why.

I went to CS to get the Tony Moly Tomatox Magic brightening Massage. Okay, it quite nice. And, this is my Tony Moly collection.

(non-stop sneezing)

And finally, I turn my hair colour to black!!!! It looks weird. LOL ... I went crazy already. Suddenly think about to change the colour.

Thanks everyone

My boss send me to cover a murder case in (I don't know how far and where) Pasir Gudang. Due to I not familiar with that place, and the taxi driver also, we spend a very long time and distance baru reach the place.

I was mumbling in the taxi that I have no money to back my office. The uncle so kind hearted, he wait for me to finish my thing, and he send me back to office.

The total was about RM70, the uncle see me like very pity, he only took me RM40, he said RM10 for me to lunch and take bus to home.

T___________________________________________________T uncle, you are so kind. GOD bless you.

And I had my lunch alone before I went for another function. I met a monk, he stopped me and gave me a "fo pai", I was shocked. He said blessing you and your family. I donated RM5.

I was so poor and I still donate money. @_______@

Everything goes like ... wth?

But God bless me!

WARM...

It's so warm recently. I have to say that I am gonna to melt in the air. Why the weather just like a oven?! Arghh ... It makes me can't sleep well in the night, even if I sleep nakedly.

Actually I din't sleep with cloth-less body.

I got my company confirmation letter, so nice I can plan to have my car soon! But what if election in June, And I have not enough time to apply my car loan, and get the fckin car.

Ohhh, gosh.

I just want to pray, for everything.

Fck the motorcycle outside, stupiak noisy.

And I got my book already. I love the photos. And I have to finish it soon, I love the words inside. And the real JJ Lin. <3

What a erherm day,

See, my hair no more mushroom, it become dry grass. Hell!!! Should get myself some nice hair treatment at home!

Yet, I received my soap.

One, two, Three ... Eight! Eight soaps ! and 1 FOC.

My job is getting tougher, just hope everything goes well and smooth. The seller is so nice, wrap all the soap, stick with the stickers and also back there got the ingredients list.

Oh, thanks.

And after that, I will work double hard. And It is impossible I change to Sinchew. T^T

Compliment

Hey guys, I received a compliment today, "nice hair, and nice body" erherm... Ignore the nice body part. But I like it. HAHAHAHA

There are a lot of FAT hide in my tummy. You will not know... hiak hiak...

And I super like my new hair style!

Yesterday was having dinner with my colleague, she ordered the Tomyam soup steambot, so today I am so sick, I mean my stomach... But the soup is niceeeee...

I love this cookie, but it's too sweet.... grrr...

And lastly, hell, mushroom me!

Sorry I lazy to upload the WuChuns' fan meeting photo. I like him in the poster better.... sorry, don't punch me.

I am cute

Today, this evening, I decided to cut my hair. I went to a saloon after my work, I don't know how to cut my hair.

I asked the hair stylist, bob again? She said, yeap. And I replied, uhhhh~

She said, but different bob.

My reaction, yeah! baby!

Ahahahaha .... And this is the result.

I love it so much, and my sister said look like Han DaJins' hair style, and I was like, yeah ... look alike.
Now I am more like a student, like a cute student.
HAHAHAHAHA.....

I want see Wuchun 2moro....let me go bah, boss!

Kiss the cars' ass

Chatime was having buy 1 free 1 promotion, so I decided to have some. I bought two, I get four. Granny likes to drink pearl milk tea, my cousin and his wife likes the sour sweet taste tea, and ofcourse, I like grass jelly milk or macha red bean.

And guess, what happened? I bumped the taxis' ass! WAT TA FAK. I admit that I was careless and I was tired, exhausted like a pig!

Luckily my boss wasn't here this few days, if not, I must be fuckin tired because he is the devil who keep throwing works for us ... it's good then. I like busy rather than siting there and count my fingers.

Please blessed me like your anak, I need more luck. Waiting for the chance to go Korea.

hurt myself

I don't want to hurt myself, but people keep hurting me. And finally I love the feeling of me hurting myself. Anyone want to get drunk today?

Sorry, WHAT TA FAK!!!!!!

I hope I can shout out loud like a crazy. I never know reporter can do the social workers' job. I am so pissed with this kind of person, please lah, the easy matter should solve it easily !

DAMN you la! Called my handphone also useless what! I am not super woman, I can't help you to solve everything bah!

And second thing I want to shout out loud, my offday please be fixed! Grrrrrrrrrrrrr..........

And you! If you want to treat me nicely, please continue to do that!

OMGK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so tired.

Old Old time

Guess where I went?

This machine was already almost 100 years ago, imported from London. 

I love this pic so much!

And the dictionary, old dictionary ...

Love it.