1/4 JJ Lin ComeBack

Nothing much to say, as usual, he is my idol, JJ Lin. Now he is Come Back! With his new album. I am awaiting for his new songs! I think he can do it well!!!

Forever my best Male Chinese Singer. He is awesome with his vocal! <3

His new albums' photo are so nice! I like all!!!

1/4 Trouble Maker

I watched the new paring yesterday. 4Minutes Hyunah and Beast Hyunseung. Gorgeous pairing <3. My bias is Gikwang, so Hyunseung pair with Hyunah is okay for me. XDDDDD

And they kissed on the MAMA stage today! HAWT!!!!!

Teaser!

1/4 Panda eyes, Crazy nights

It was so fun when we gathered. I have no idea what thing tied 4 of us together, just wonder how it goes. It had been a very long time (only 1 month ++ ==") we din't met each other, so kept acting crazy when we were "on" the mood of going crazy.

OMG, I don't know what am I talking about and I am damn it tired. Just feel want to stick with my lappie and produce some nice articles. This might be a difficult time for me after the graduation. I don't know why I think like that.

Okay, I spent my whole KL trip with my lovely Beauty members. I love them very much because we can laugh like crazy niaaaa. @@ weird.

The first thing when I arrived in KL, I went to BB and walking around, and we all met at Pavillion. I love Padini! XDDD

The second day, convocation. It was quite awkward that I din't bring my family to go. When I looked at the others' people family with joyful expression and taking care of their daughters and sons, damn it I was so envy and feel like "never mind, it just me."

YSY,Peipei and I took some funny pictures. We did like to make ourself ugly. =D

We went to One Utaman right after our convocation, with Steffi and Lily. Nandos' was something funny. It was the first time I had my meal in Nandos', just like the moment when we went crazy there. Yea, always. And we went to sing some songs until 4am.

So unlucky I drank coffee, like drugs. It made me dizzy and feel like wanna puke. Awful feeling. No more coffee. The singing session end @ 4am and we sent Lily leader back to her home. YSY and I stayed @ Steffis' home for 1 hour like that, and we went back to Charissas' place.

Leader Lily was daebak!

I ran here and there and I went Steffis' convocation. We were facing a very serious problem after that- we don't know where to go after that. YSY, Steffi and I 你看我 我看你 don't know where to go. Leader was at home, so 3 of us very "chi ngoi".

And the funniest thing was, we went to the park and played in the playground. And we ranked by a 9 years old JB girl. OMG. OMG. horrible! I don't know I just like to chat nonsense with kids, and tell something weird. @@

I don' know how to end this diary, just want to say, my Beauty members are the best! XDDD

1/4 Like Crazy

It makes me thinking about 2AM song . Yeah, start from 6pm onward I will be the one who is crazy of everything. (OMG, I don't know what I am talking about)

I am so glad that are some friends like my articles in my lovely blog. So touching when someone tell you "I like your article" and I started tearing in front f my lappie.

Yes, I am crazy.

Gonna off to my lovely KL to attend my convocation. It is quite meaningless without my family. I promise I will get another chance to make them proud of me, not just bacause of my academy or something have to depend on them.

I am trying my best to write some articles. I know it is very difficult for me to have a good chance because I always lack of luck. My friend told me about that, and I think so. hmmm ...

Hello, God, can you see me? I need some luck to help me success. *jump jump and waving to the sky*

I should remind myself, my soul is renewing everyday.

1/4 A little card from Cindy Onnie

Hello, this is the second letter I received in this week. It is kind of warm hearted I received my dear 친구. Oh, I love you all. Onnie said she can't find a post card so she posted me something. =) So happy to received your card here!

Fly far away from Hong Kong all the way to Malaysia. I love it.

Onnie, you have a cute writing too. Your writing like spaghetti, look yummy. @@ I can't believe I describe peoples' writing using food. @@ terrible woman.

I should start my article now. I'm gonna work harder on my writing, I am waiting for my luck and chance. I hope they are coming very soon! and my dear kwanggie! OMG~ I have no luck since I was born in the fuckin world.

Compare to others, I am super "black". So I am waiting for "Red" now!

1/4 I have a leader called Lily

Finally, I received my leaders' letter. When I hold it, it is feel like a parcel. @@ Other members received it early in this week, only me, received it just now. Poor late.

Our lovely leader, Lily. Her writing is so cute, like noodle, can eat. @@

As she said that her letter is very ugly and simple, but I think it is warm heart letter niaa~

So cute that she sent me Gikwanggies' socks. I like it so much! XDDD

Thanks Leader Lily, I love you.

Another thing for today, I went to bank to take some money for my new racquet. I saw a little girl selling some "kuih" infront of the bank. The weather was bad, and she still have many going to sell, I bought one from her. I think this is what I can help her. =(

1/4 headache

Suddenly, like something knock on my head. So pain, so blur~ OMG who can help me?

1/4 Fairness

I can't deny the Fairness in this world is very limited. I can feel it all the time. People look pretty, I am not; People are smart, I am dump; People are rich, I am poor. All of those things occur like a natural born.

I have no idea what I was talking about. Ignore me.

Feel tired with those stupid things and I hope that everything goes smooth and reach my target. Thanks.

Goof night.

1/4 Grand opening of my new blog

Hello, I re-open my another blog named:

在我和他之间的灵感

[Click it to enter]

All about my Chinese articles and stories. I hope that many people will like it and go there to read my articles. Thankiu~~

1/4 Friend or Lover?

Hello, nice badminton playing with Luyian Sophia. =) Exercise makes refreshed my mind! Yooo~~ I logged in to my Facebook and found my beauty friend posted a music video, Huh Gaks' mv. His songs are just nice and full of sadness TT.

First mv I watched was ft. Beast Junhyung. The mv was fine but the song is just nice. This is why he won music bank once. Compete to others famous groups, his song is just very strong in popularity as he has a really good vocal.

And the part mv, I just get in a very depress and sad mood. =( Junhyung and the lead character die. TT OMG a pretty sad mv! My heart just bleeding like hell when I keep thinking of Junhyung scarified himself to help his buddy and the lead male character just die like that, horrible! TT

Hope you will like it! I hope myself is getting better. I love myself. I better don't love the people around me. XDDDD I love gikwang enough!

1/4 Gikwang spamm Makes me happie!

I don't know what to say. I hope world will be better after I hope it become better. @@ Ough! I just remembered about Mv! Hahahahaha~ Go and google it out! It's not tiring to be a crazy fangirl, but it's tired to going to work. Zzzzz ... How good if my job is a fangirl and the income keep on coming?!

Who don't wish. =="

Start my mini Gikwang spammmmmmmm~ I can't stop staring on him because he is gorgeous!

End with a DooDoo leader selca. I like this photo so much! Doodoo not bad too! I like him in G.NAs' MV! OMO!

1/4 엄마, 니가 너무 보고 싶어.

Anyone can give me a warm hug? I am very sorry to myself that I make myself so tired. Not physically but mentally. I don't know is it my fault that I felt tired recently? I am so frustrated while I can't make myself feel better and I failed to be patient.

I try to not to complain, but I can't. I am so sorry to the one who actually listen to my complain, very thank you. I don't want to complain, but I have no way to release my stress. Writing? It is only for me to express the beauty of words.

So poor that I have no way to reduce my stress. Where are my stress comes from? Job? It's okay for me, but I have a more ideal job. BF? Sorry, I don't have a love one. I only don't understand my dad, why he likes to scold and mumbling me. He is a good father, he do care us. But some how he keep scolding me and it makes me very frustrated. I try myself best not to care about it, but very difficult!

If he really change this bad habit, I think I will prefer to stay at home. I really don't understand why I always being scold. I am 20 year-old, I know what I am doing, please don't worry. Last time mom used to reading my blog, she knew what I was thinking. I hope my dad will surf internet too. TT

When I was studied in KL, I talk slowly and softly. Since I back to this place, I become more hot tempered. I try to be patient when talking to them, but I just don't know why they are like want to quarrel like that. I don't like this way, it makes me old faster. Since I back to here, I'm mentally ill, physically look old.

I try to be happy, but how? I can't do the thing I like, I can't talk slowly and softly to my dad, I can't do the thing I like and it is not harmful. What is the meaning of my life? I am now become lifeless and colourless. So sad to see myself like that, because I can't do anything. My dad is stubborn like what I don't know, he will never listen to advices and it makes me look like a useless daughter.

Yes, I am. I can't give my family wealth, I can't give them happiness, I can't give them a comfortable environment and life. YES, I'M USELESS.

Stay at home, I feel I am a rubbish. I can write nice articles, I can do many things. But ...

Who can rescues me? I miss my mom so much right now. I wish I can hug her tightly, and tell her that how stress I am , how useless I am now.

I HOPE I WILL FORGET THIS AND ESCAPE FROM THIS SUCKS CONDITION. I try to hold it. Hope I can control my mind. I am so sick, I miss mom! I feel like want to hug someone right now.

I am going to bang the wall, jog until I can't breath to reduce this kind of useless feeling.

1/4 Me too, Flower!

Hello, it's relax time. I hope I will happier in this month =) just make me smile~ When I entered to my Tumblr, I found something make me smile. It's you! Lee Gikwang! Hahahahaha~ Ignore that I'm kinda crazy now. I now only know that Mr. Lee Gikwang is casting for a new drama. named Me Too, Flower!

I know this kind of name is weird. Hehehehe~ According to his Twitter, I saw he was in police uniform, he is a handsome police flower boy in the drama! OMG! I can't stop thinking about the new drama! ps:even my old drama haven't finish yet. =="

What is also very excited is Yoon Shi Yoon also in the drama! He is the lead male character, but I don't know why his image look kinda old and flower. =( I don't like the hair style. I like his acting in Bread, Love and Dream I don't know why the WikiDrama named it as Baker King, Kim Tak Goo. It is a super nice drama.

Oh, it make up my day. I've been a very long time didn't be a fangirl like this. Looking forward to my dearest Gikwang-shii new drama. I love his cuteness in My Princess But it is undeniable that Song Seung Hyun was getting more handsome and charismatic!

I just can't wait for the new drama! Yoon Shi Yoon and Lee Gikwang AHHHHHHHHHHHH!