1/4 Last day of 2011

Hello, I am damn it disappointed now. I don't know what to say, I just want to stay alone. I feel I am more suitable to live alone.

I did care about the thing I promise to other, I never hurt others. I also don't know what I going to say, I feel so damn down now.

2011, it makes me a lot of different.

Thank you.

2011, it let me see my surrounding clearly.

Thank you.

2011, it prove to me who are the true friends.

Thank you.

2011, you gave me 3 crazy woman that I love.

Thank you very much. They shine up my life.

Shit you trouble! please go away from me! DAMN YOU PLEASE LAHHHH~

I will leave you all here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate you, FAT.

I hate you, FAKER!

I hate you, betrayer!

I hate you, promise breaker!

I hate you, trouble!

I hate you, sickness!

I hate you, barrier!

I hate you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1/4 bye bye 2011, hello 2012

Hello, I should say "hi" to 2012. 2012 seems like a horrible year, I don't know why, maybe because of the Mayans' prediction? Oh!
I promise myself to make a new year plan for 2012 so that I live happier and have some direction in my life.

First thing, new year wish.

1. Hope that everyone be healthy and safely.

2. World will not end in 2012.

3. No war.

4. No disaster.

5. Where is my prince? - Gikwang @_____@

6. wealth and health for my family.

Second thing, my plan.

1. Earn as many as I can.

2. Shape up my body.

3. Lose final 5 kg weight

4. Get what I want in my career.

5. Improve my writing skill.

6. Beautiful Show!

That's all for now, I think I will add on later. I just hope everything will be fine. A new starting for a year, I will be moving out from my castle again, going to a new city, start another journey in my life.

Just hope everything goes smoothly. Friends who want to see me, sorry, I will meet you after a longggg time.

Okie, new year new mood, I want to be more patient and optimistic for next year.

1/4 Sup Tulang - Bone Soup?

Good Evening! I was playing badminton with my friend just now. I am back with my healthy body and I was not satisfied with my condition now. Hello, I gained 2kg since last week. =( Super sad.

We went to a unknown place to have some drinks. I ordered a cup of tea, without any sugar. "Teh-O kosong". @___@ and I just realized Red tea that I usually drink will make my face look yellowish. What the H. Okay, I will only drink "sky juice".

Don't know why three of us suddenly have appetite, we ordered one bowl of "Sup Tulang". I miss that smell~ and the bone~~~ AHHHHHH~It was very different with the pictures' soup. The one we ate looked very ordinary without more vegetables. T___T the celery, tomatoes, and potatoes! OMG!

So tasty arrrr~ I am not regret eating it. HAHAHAHA~~ although this one is not the best. HAHAHA

But I am regret not watching Beast on Gayodaejun T____T.

1/4 Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to you all! I have the suckest ever Christmas in this year, I have to work during this festival, act like I am not a ordinary human. Hello, I also need festival break, although I am not a Christian.

I am not satisfied with myself, Damnn me I am so stupid !!! Hello, Santa, take my stomach away, so that I will not feel hungry all the time.

START DIET AGAIN!!!!

A little present for you all, Christmas pictures. <3

1/4 Lonely Christmas Eve

Hello, I am here again, still alive, breathing and eating. What the hell I gained 1kg during this week, the winter solstice, Christmas ... I just want to hold myself from food, but I failed. T___T WHY?

I swear to GOD, I want start again diet this week, with healthier food. I have to reach my target ASAP. !!! I just hate that, I can't rest in public holiday, suckest life ever. I want the autonomy back, I have the right! GRRRRRR......

Christmas Eve suppose to be warm and casual, but why I am so frustrated and clueless? Damn it I don't get more messages regarding to the Christmas. T___T Damn it I thought myself are important to everyone.

Shit me.

I just having a very simple make up tutorial for myself. I have no talent on make up. I am sucks. HAHAHAHA. I almost gone crazy because of the stupid mascara, I don't know how to make my eye lashes look longer, attractive and natural.

I am stupid.

And I realized my face is too bright. OMG the skin tone didn't match my neck! YERRR~ super sucks. I also realized the lip gloss, super ugly. @@ shouldn't bought that kind of glossy thing, very terrible.

My Christmas Eve just wasted like that, I should be walking on Bukit Bintang street, observing people and feel the Christmas. Pity me. I faced my lappie, write my article and looking at darling Gikwang.

I was so pain when I was watching to Beast Music Bank special performance. Gikwang was sitting on a chair aside the stage. TT Poor Gikwang work so hard. HEART PAIN. TT

MERRY CHRISTMAS to my Darling, to me, to my friends, FAMILY ... <3 I love myself and you all.

1/4 Present for myself

My sis bought me a handkerchief. Stitch!!!! AHHHHHHHH~

I went Watson, I bought myself Neutrogena mask! Hydro boost!

My cousin came in my room when I was surfing internet. I caught her and took selca with me. HAHAHAHA

1/4 Bunch of Chinese songs

Hello, there is a very long time I din't blog about C-Pop. My idol- JJ Lin releases his album every winter time, awww~ I like the surprises that he made for his fans.

I love the mv so much as it took place in Switzerland. The scenes are very nice !!! And the phrases used in the MV were super touched and made sense.

It is great to listen his new style in singing. I love it. His complete album will be released on 31st December!

And the second song in my list is Claire Kuos' song. I don't know how is the translated songs' name, but it means "When your are with me, you thinkin about her". This song is super duper make me think a lot. I don't know why.

Her album will fully release in 25th December. Christmas! Who send me her present as Christmas, I will love him/her forever! HAHAH

Oh, another song recently appear in my MP3 is OST song. I like the way the composer present the song. The lyric is simple and fine. But I like the song, because the composer caught the feeling to the lyric.

I bet that if the composer just simply compose it, I bet this song won't be in my MP3 list. I like it. <3



And last song for this month, Soda Greens' song. I am okay with the band. But this song is super meaningful and it makes me think about my life. Thanks Luyian shared this song with me and I started crying when I first watched the mv.

Some people can't catch the meaning, but I caught it. And I cried.

1/4 Self-Value

Hello peeps, I am back. The one way ticket din't works, so I back to here, recharge and fly again. =) I am fine.

I was looking for Padini Concept store When I was in City Square. I was so brave that I wanted to go Tebrau City from Johor city. And when I noticed the bus actually pass by City Square, I jump out from the bus. HAHAHAHAH.....

Nice shopping time! I realised I am only wearing Size 6 and Size M for the jeans now! Is it the cutting big? @@ I was so shocked when I realise the jeans I tried on was 6 !!! I almost cried in the fitting room. How fool I am.

The clothes I picked all having 50% discount! OMG! I was so enjoyed in those price.

Because of some reason, I have to start to learn make up from now. I know I am looking good enough without make up. But the world is super reality, I have to wear make up to make myself presentable in front of people. Sucks world.

Luckily I found Tony Moly finally available in Malaysia! OMG! I went to Nature Republic, the sales girl just ignore me as I looked very simple and ugly. D= How dare they judge people just like that?

And I turned to Tony Moly, the sale girl was friendly and she answered my question patiently. She is sweet, and that was the good attitude to face customers. Give her a Facebook "like". HAHAHAHAHA

I seek for her opinion and I bought a mascara, eyeliner and a BB cream. I had tried it once when I got back to home. I just wonder how can the girls put so thick make up on their face? I applied the eyeliner, and look like nothing. Mascara, I am not pro on it. BB cream, how much I gonna apply?!

Then I am the Tony Moly member. I got their member card while I purchased their products up to certain value. The gift is so cute. I love the pens, cute and nice for writing.

And I found out, this is the eyeliner. nice to use, very water-prof, very hard to remove. =(

And now I know, how much that my value is. infinity! I love myself, I bought myself the things that can make me better. <3

1/4 One way ticket

I bought the one-way-ticket to my dream. It is not expensive, and it gives me hopes. I hope I am on my way, on the track.

I am taking bus tomorrow morning, I am prepared well with myself and my mind set. I only left my formal shoes. WHERE IS IT?!

I only can go for once, I must success in this chance. I have to find where is my shoes first. I have no idea is it my dad hide it?

Oh, please, I need a shoes. Formal shoes.

1/4 1st face powder for me

I was so dumb in make up,Sorry, I am 0 level in make up. because I never make up. I bought myself a mini face powder. Hmm... I am no idea what is it for, and I just want it makes my face colour look better. Ouch, I just try face powder, not foundation.

If I will putting on make up on my face, I will only put on powder, lip balm and eyeliner. NO MORE. I don't want my face like a colour palette

. Horrible!

HAHAHAHAHA, I have no choice to leave my face like that, I should packaging myself and sell myself! HAHAHAHAHAHA~ I believe in future that I will be better. I want try my best for every chance from now on.

I only spent RM7 for my face powder. Simple is beauty. =)

And I bought oat cookies. I love the packaging! So cute! Strawberry & blackcurrant Oat cookies. So nice =D I admit the purpose I bought this packaging was because of the tin. HAHAHAHHA.

<3 is in the air~

1/4 Officially in love with ma DREAM

Hello, I admit that I like to dream so much. That is why I am always dreaming, like a fish, swim in the bowl, and imagine that is a deep sea. How silly that I am.

Enjoyed the badminton time with my secondary schoolmates. I did know that they are nice enough, at least they will not stab you from behind. Some times they will, but in their friendly way. I am so glad that I can think again and change my perception about them.

My mood was so good, I felt like want to get drunk. Crazy. I was planing to go to the playground and play the swing, but seems no one interested on it. Maybe I like the feeling of flying in the air? But unfortunately I will feel dizzy when I stay so long on the swing. Stupid ...

Actually now I am waiting for my hair to dry, it is 1.30am. Good morning. I am so happy that my dream was calling me and make me feel high. I was smiling all the way in office, OMG. I ate some KOKO KRUNCH, and it made my tongue itchy. TT How come.

You know, I did enjoy people telling me that I am slim and look nice now. I am so obsess now, with myself, my dream and my talent. I am not perfect, I am just who I am. People, don't ignore me, I will shine brightly in future.

I envy the one who enjoy the hapiness now, but I will work harder to achieve what I want. Don't think I am nothing, I will make myself become everything. Currently looking for someone who knows the real me. Thanks myself.

1/4 Dreaming

Angel brought a chance for me. Thanks father. Hope it, sincerely. Angel, bring all those stuffs for me. I need more luck, I need this chance, badly.

I love the fact of hope, it means everyone is looking on me. I have the chance to glow. Brighter and brighter in the future. I can see the clear sky now, I am waiting for the stars and the moonlight.

The lake is calm, night just beautiful. Everything is quiet and easy.

I love this song recently, Dreaming. <3

Chase my dream, I want fly high!

1/4 What is love?

I am so curious about love in a relationship. Seriously. I never know, because I never tried. HAHAHAHAHAHA

I heard of a lot of love story. Puppy love, deep deep love, windy love, soft drink love, ... hmmm .... they are just the stranger for me, nothing special but curious. errr...

Just wonder how people love other? Some of them not really understand themselves, but how they gonna understand other and love other? huh? CURIOUS. Some relationship end up with misunderstood and disagreement... How good if everything is clear.

Some times I just wanna laugh at the people who think "love" is very easy and simple. Yeap, love is as simple as a kindergarten maths, but in a complexion way.

LOVE include your friends, your family,your partner,your pets, your stuffs, your everything. AND YOURSELF. How far did you understand about love?

你们都很肤浅！

1/4 Christmas A-Pink My My

A warmly month. I love Christmas. I love the feeling. I love everything in December!

A-Pink released their new mini album recently, obviously they are matching the Christmas day, the rhythm is super Christmas. This song is nice, I like it!

Eun Ji is getting prettier, but how come I see her is stronger? HAHAHAHAHA It's okay, I like her. Other members also getting prettier, I think they will concur the KPOP in future too, like SNSD. Some of the member have to improve their vocal...

I like the shorts! YAHHHHH~

IU also made her comeback in Music bank, her facial expression when she is singing is zero. Like usual, zero. I can't deny that her vocal is great, just the way she perform, should be more sweet and sweet. But, I like the previous chubby IU. =(

Her album is nice for me, but I like the songs with more beats. I don't know why. Like Beast, 4minutes, G.NAs' songs were fulfil my needed.(Partially)

I was writing my new article just now. I change my direction, now concentrate on my story, then I will doing other articles too. I just hope my time is fully used. I love Beast niaaaaaaa~ As usual, I still in love with the Gikwang shii. I just wonder why he always act like a pabo in drama?

Gosh, he is cute! But Yoon siyoon so man!