1/4 my first SALARY

Hello, I am here, still alive. Finally I got my first long term job salary. I can't believe that I can work for 1 month! How amazing I am no more feeling with my recent life. Life is colourless without Korean boys! ARGH~

I was so fool, I dreamed something last night, but I couldn't remember what I dreamed. I feel scared in the dream, all the way SCARING of something. I don't know what is that, feel like it was a person. OUGH~ what is that?!

I love the spirulina crackers in my office. <3 I had bought a new collagen crackers, hope it is yummy. =) Starting of a new month, I am looking forward to my Convocation Ceremony. Because I can meet up with Lily leader, YSY and Steffi!!!!

I miss you all so much!

I was playing with my poor finger in the office. See, it was almost purple in colour. @@ It was painful!

Start using a skin care product, hope it is effective to reduce the tiredness-look on my face. Lift it up yea! I hope I will be look younger later. =)

1/4 LIZARD Grrrrrrrr

I hate lizard like I hate the fuckin annoying things in my life. There are so much useless point in my life and I am so tired to bother them. I like freedom, but I never have it. LOLOLOLOLOL

And WTH I am? So useless to let myself live like that. And even the fuckin lizard fell on my head. ARGH! I'll kill all the lizards in this word!

I hate people control my action, it's already out of their limitation. I am so disappointed with myself that I end up with this depress life. I have no way to release stress, HOW?

I like to mumbling, but at least I do not harm myself! Just let me to be the person I want to be, just let me do the things I like. I'll not let myself to be dreamless like a zoombie walkin without soul and thought.

That's me. Forgive that I'm selfish with my beautiful dream. I love myself and everyone, I'll not hurt or harm anyone. It's clueless to let me like this. I wrote some articles, but I lack of inspirations. How can I find them out and play with the words?

MOM, I LOVE YOU. Please let everyone loves me back, I loves them too, just not as deep as family and the boys I liked. So sorry to say that, please let others to love me. I need time to full fill my dream and future. Thanks.

And then, I hate lizards!!!!!!!

=Finish of mumbling full with tiredness =

1/4 Diet Diary

Failed. I don't know what happened to me. I am so serious about my weight management plan, but I failed it everydday. WTF. I found something on net.

1，不要老想着你每天绝食为了减肥，什么都不要想，就不吃就好了。饿的时候去睡觉，找人聊天，或者畅想自己瘦了以后的样子，多看看模特的图片。

2，减肥期间，不要想着过了这20天就可以大吃大喝了，你要想着你从此就要做个瘦美人了，不再贪恋美食，一身轻了。20天结束的时候，慢慢增加食量，一开始最好喝点粥吃点好消化的东西，否则胃一下吃不消的。给自己留有5斤的反弹区间，减肥完成后，反弹5斤是正常的，别给自己心里压力，别看一反弹就自暴自弃大吃大喝了。

3，减肥期间，告诉自己，不吃苦中苦，难为人上人。你吃了别人吃不了的苦，就能做成别人做不到的事情。

4，“胖是懒惰和馋的表现，是自我控制力差的表现！如果你连用自己的手拿起勺子，挖起多少饭，再送进自己的嘴都控制不住，还能做成什么事？！”

5，如果你真想去到罗马，无论你选择水路还是陆路，最后总能到达，前提是，你真的想去。

6，当你对美好身材的渴望远远大于你对食物的渴望，你就可以成功减肥。减不下来那是因为你对痩的渴望还不够强烈。

7，拒绝不了食物的诱惑，你永远只是一个胖子。

8，没必要羡慕那些瘦下来的人，等你瘦下来了，人家同样也会羡慕你。

9，能改变你的只有你自己，没人能救得了你。

10，与其花大把的银子花在请私教上，不如拿这些钱去做spa，买漂亮的衣服。

11，对食物抱着感恩的心态，即使只是一粒葡萄干。也要很小口很小口的吃

12，把没减肥的好处、减肥的好处、没减肥的坏处以及减肥的坏处。写在表格上。

1/4 一步一脚印之《西南十九的秘密》节选

哈咯，晚上好。其实我在文字里打滚了好多年，从来就没有什么好的作品能够给大家分享。TT 悲哀啊。

自从工作以后，每下班回到家里坐在电脑本子前就想努力写作，想把自己的文字风格分享出去。《西南十九的秘密》写后，Pizza是我的第一位读者，他说很喜欢我写的文，虽然用词简单，但是描写恰当，很不错。我的第二位读者，Cindy Onnie，他说文写得很好，很庆幸自己能够明白华文。他说要读第二次再去感受文章的意义，我还在等待回复。第三位读者，LuYian， 他说我的描写能让他看见大海，很舒服。OMO，能够让读者看见故事里的景物，我的荣幸啊。

之前和小学级任在面书聊过一小段话，她问我是否还会和文字打交道？我回答道，是的。只要我一天还能写，我还会继续写，哪怕人家认为我的文很烂，水准低。

之前还在执著着自己的文是否应该把词汇加深？可是我做不到，我认识的字太少了，只能以我仅有的华文水平来呈现我的文。

《西南十九的秘密》完成以后的一个星期，我很惊叹我当时能够写下这文的心情。有好多的意境是我现在想像不到的，但是那个时候的我写下来了。文中有几句我很喜欢的，

1。当我坐在窗沿上，密秘的方向，是我的视野，是你的影子。

我不是一个诗情画意的人，可是以我当时的灵感，我的确是这样的人。要看看我在写作的时候想什么？No way， 我不怎么公开我写作时候的情愫。

2。娃娃兔和我很像，小小的眼睛，想看大大的世界；懦弱的心，只向着你。

这一句，有够吓人，很肉麻咧。可是我好喜欢！

还在想，要不要po全文。

1/4 New recipe Kimchii

Hello everyone, kindly introduce my new recipe kimchii~ I made it today, will finish the process by tomorrow. New recipe kimchii only available in Wings' home.

Went to the mini market with my dad after working. Sigh... I already get used to the environment and time. I know it is not enough. I thinkin of macaroni suddenly, with all tomatoes !!! OMG

The radish is so salty, hope they method will make it better. Will try the kimchii radish tomorrow~~ I can't wait for the kimchii fried eggs. TT OMG it is so tasty!

Wait for the pretty kimchii photo~

~~~

1/4 Love you before loving myself

I realised my hands was so dry. TT they look sicked. I don't know what happen to them. Izzit possible my working place too dry? I apply lotion on my body every night and apply the sunblock to work too! Gosh~ soooo girlish!

I can't believe that I really take care of myself now. Protect myself from sun, avoid myself from oily food ... The only thing I haven't do is, EAT LESS. Okay, I eat less, but im still eating dinner. WTH Giving myself last chance to delete "dinner".

See, it's dry!

Then I went to Watson to buy myself a Vaselin Hand Creme. I can't found the Bee Honey Hand Creme TT They don't have stock. Sigh ...

This one not bad also, I can try it. I will use it for a period, will tell you guys how it works. =D

I can't deny that I am a crazy person.

1/4 First day, nice starting?

Hello, officially start my 2nd diet plan for my last 5kg. See what I ate today:

Breakfast: Sardin Bun

Lunch: Berry mixed protein oat

Dinner: Soya+shared bun with my sister

That's all.

I was carving for Malays' dishes, please help me! I don't want be FAT. TT thankiu for my patient. =)

And I also carving for my dearest hubby Lee Gikwangs' new pictures. WTF I am too obsessed with this guy. TT no one can cure me from it, I admit I am damn it crazy. Like a chicken! @@

Let me continue carving for food and kiki. I need inspiration for my next article, God, please gimme a super sweet dream.

1/4 shoo Shoo ~

I wish I will never feel tired. After working days, I feel tired. It doesn't mean physically tired, just the feeling feels tired. What the hell I am talking about?

Start from tomorrow, I hope I will never feel tired. I still young, I want stay forever young! OMG, I am still young! Like a teenager!

My diet plan for today was spoilt. =( I drank oat as my lunch and breakfast but Asam Curry for my dinner TT. I never expect my dad can cook that nice. TT Got mummmy tasteeeeee

I got my own chores in my working place. I hope I can handle it fluently, I don't like the feeling of FREE. It makes me feel I am useless =(

Last night was a crazy night. I was sad and sent messages to my Beauty members. They all are super funny and cute. I love them, muahhh~ just hope them will be normal a bit, don't be abnormal.

Okay, I should stop here. Good night everyone~

1/4 Love you you

<3

林俊杰 - love You You

love you you 我像孤独的渔夫

说不出 爱的温度

很想给你幸福 你却自我保护

转弯处 只剩下潮汐之外的荒芜

love you you 却在海里迷了路

找不出 心的归属

思念越尝越苦 心跳乱了脚步

怎么我 读不懂你唇语之间的无助

就算用尽所有真心 却到不了你的心底

回忆难以靠近 你是我奢求的唯一

让我用尽所有力气 只要你相信

我最坚持的声音

只剩一句 love you you stay with me

能不能别这样放弃

能不能就放开自己

海浪穿透我的伤心

请听一听爱的声音

就算用尽所有真心 却到不了你的心底

回忆难以靠近 你是我奢求的唯一

让我用尽所有力气 只要你相信

我最坚持的声音

只剩一句 love you you stay with me

1/4 MOVIE

Hello! Wonderful Thursday! Tomorrow will be a casual Friday! OMG I can't believe time flies like a G6 XDDDDDDDDD 2 weeks time just passed like that! I am more awaiting for the day I can get my first salary.

It's Thursday again and I LOVE it! Oh, I got the McDonald voucher yesterday! RM5 voucher from my online survey job. Weeeeeheee~Don't envy, I just start my 2nd wave of diet plan, but I failed in the first day, I ate Malay mixed rice as lunch, I supposed to eat only Quaker oat. =(

Failure.

Introduce 2 movies to you all, ~ I don't know what the story about, but I'm very sure that is a love story! XDDDDDDDD I will watch it by tomorrow. The theme song sing by JJ Lin! OMG~ wonderful voice!

And the second movie I watched, Damn it Han Geng and Wu Chun so handsome (not really) @@ And the story line was fine and I felt sad for the ending. Han Geng and Wu Chun lost everything at the end of the movie.

Synopsis: http://movies.msn.com/movies/movie-synopsis/my-kingdom-(da-wu-sheng)/?silentchk=1&wa=wsignin1.0

1/4 For my 2nd round of diet - first day

Hello, Super Ah Wing is here, still alive and get survive in DRY life. Hoooooh~ I can't imagine I din't smell the shopping centre for more than 2 weeks, MIRACLE! I'm a window shopping queen, always trying on many clothes, but I never buy them lolololol...

When I think back my college life, that was so fun! I miss you already... =(

Christina and I was chatting on FB, we bet again. I have to lose 5 more kg, because my BMI now is still over weight TT. How sad izzit?! I have to reach my target before New Year, this is my new year gift.

Oh, please clear all the barrier !!! Don't ever stop me from my diet plan, I will shoot you! Yer~~ I want stick with milk, oat and soup! OMO~ my dad cooked the winter melon soup! I miss this soup so much! So tasty! Oah~~~~~~

See what I ate for today, Early in the morning, I drank a glass of water with apple cider vinegar. Afternoon, two bread with Kaya and butter, berry soya quaker oat as my lunch. Ding Dong Dang~ time to back home! I had two bowl of winter melon soup ! OMG~ too much!!!

What else I can say for myself? Working hard, Diet hard, Play hard if there is a chance. Not much I can do, just save hard, buy hard. XDDDDDDD I admit that my obsession toward Gikwanga and Soohyun is Super Duper CRAZY.

Undeniable my fangirlism is a sickness. Friend said, it is kind of sickness, it called “相思病”. Oh, I think so. Super Gikwang just too charming in my eyes.

1/4 有没有效？

最近又在开始减肥大计。首先，

1. 燕麦，汤是我的好朋友。

2. 苹果醋对减肥好。

3. 普洱茶最清油

4. 多动，要跑步！

5. 克制自己~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

一星期后，我回来看看成果。因为这几天吃太多了。 TT

1/4 Listen to you

Hello, I am here, still alive. I really hate myself. I should concentrate on writing my articles. bye bye.

I listen to you.

1/4 感 觉

昨天在看音乐银行的时候，前半段的都是'小脚'，左翼我拿起相机，跑到院子里，想拍拍照。你知道吗？我有多久没有拿着相机到处走，到处拍了？很久了，我很想念念书的时候，拿着相机，穿越首都的市中心，捕捉每一个漂亮的风情。

想起那时候的生活，我很羡慕当初的我，自由

自在地用文字与相机去记录每一个珍贵的影子。真的很喜欢这样的日子。我现在工作了，朋友的工作环境很有书香气，我的工作环境很有包装食物香。我现在开始看到那些奶制品，巧克力，快熟面……这些东西，我开始有一点畏惧了。见得太多，吓到了。

看看天上，蓝天，月亮。月亮很勤劳，还没交更，就先跑出来站岗了。月亮婆婆你好！

这棵小花。

猫猫大人，我讨厌你！

小花，你好！

拍完这张照片，我发现我的头发，糟透了！哎~

今天下班，我很认真地想了一个问题，“为什么我会开始这份工作？” 我想了很久，可能前几天我会找到比较正面的想法，现在，我很累，因为刚才我去查货，很乱咯，乱到我想要坐在那里哭，很想抓头发发脾气。我差一点就要打人！呵呵，这样子生闷气的人，就是我咯。

我还有什么地方可以发泄的？除了乱写一通，就是这里了咯。没办法，这份工作花了我整天的时间，我唯一能做的是回家写写写…… 我好害怕变黑 TT 我是傻的。

一想到钱，我真的快要崩溃鸟。老豆没工作，全家好像要看我怎样养那样，等他眼睛复诊好了，也不知道能不能工作，我也不知道要怎么养起这个家。只要一想到钱，我就很想死。因为我还有梦想，我不想被绑死。

我不要去在乎钱，我在乎你，老光秀铉。啊，现在回家唯一消遣就是Tumblr还有看这些男人。先解决一部分的压力，未来的压力更大！ XDDDD 我加力了！

1/4 打工日记(5) - 叫我兼职女王

今天调下楼去上班，哦，要学的东西还真的很多哦。没关系，我已经习惯这么工作，这么学习。把每一天工作看成学习，会比较好过。好吧，习惯吧！

下班回家的路，就是这样的。

回到家，我收到稿费！还不错哦，竟然还可以登上报纸！好高兴哦！哈哈哈~~三篇文章。我看，我应该写多几篇的，我要赚多多稿费！哈哈哈哈~ 我还要卖韩国专辑，隐形眼镜，写作……但是哦，我要不要兼职保险业咧？ TT

我想做，但是很怕风险。 TT 怎么办？

稿费，好开心~

1/4 打工日记(4) - 我是超级无敌厉害的 Wing

今天应该是我在楼上工作的最后一天吧，因为明天我就要转下楼去学习新的东西了。这几天在楼上查货单，算货的总数，眼花缭乱。我敢说这是我面对最多数字的一次了。

我还发现一些事情，我越来越黑 TT 我没有去晒太阳，可是却越来越黑，不像话。听朋友说那是室内紫外线导致的。好不容易等到下班，回到家里煮了明早的午餐，就上网来找解决方案。

我得到的结果是，找不到很好的解决方案。所以我在这个星期五要去买柠檬，每天喝，看会不会白。生气死了，每一次回到这里一定黑到不懂像什么，这一次要呆在这里这么久，我怕会变成黑人 TT 我不要~~~

我要变白！谁来教我怎么做？！

明天要到另一个部门了，加油吧！

1/4 打工日记(3) - 白日梦

今天在办公室的时候，我接到一通电话，《旅行家》杂志社打电话来，想聘请我。哦，疯了。没办法，我现在已经把东西搬回家，而且已经开始工作了，怎么办？于是乎，我就随口问问，看看他们有没有聘请自由截稿人，有哦。于是乎我就决定在未来几星期内写稿给他们。

我努力赚钱，今天在办公室完成了一些工作，坐在窗口前，看着窗外的蓝天，我能感觉到自由的呼唤，窗外的世界总是那么美好，我好喜欢外面那花花世界，什么都好。习惯了，很难改。目前为止，我还不是很习惯八点上班，五点下班的生活，因为枯燥乏味。

我知道自己是这样的人，不是工作不好，而是我的性格不适合。我希望我很快就适应这样的环境。今天又说了，我喜欢没有人认识我的地方，我喜欢这样的环境，那样的我，无拘无束，多好。

驾着车子回家，有时候还会放空，真是奇怪，会来这里以后，放空的次数越来越多了。我也不想这样的，有时候我把梦想说出来，人家会以为我在发白日梦。我觉得，那些不是白日梦，我要的生活在未来才找得到，我的梦想绝对不是白日梦。太可笑了！

我很喜欢有梦想的我，因为有一种冲劲，它能让我向前迈进。工作归工作，那是我在寻找梦想时一定要做的事，只要完成了我的职责，我会更靠近梦想。

1/4 打工日记(2)

厚，早上不想起床！！！现在下班回家了，吃着巧克力更新日志。吃完巧克力，吃糖果~嘿嘿~今天早上载妹妹去上学后就去办公室 TT 很早啊~ 买了一份报纸，坐在车上看报纸。今天的午餐有金枪鱼沙拉！啊~我的最爱！我喜欢沙拉喜欢到要死了！哈哈哈~明天也要吃一样的吗？好吧，明天也吃这个！谁叫我喜欢，没办法。

今天早上，我又用回昨天下班的沿海小路，喜欢吧？美吗？早上睡眼惺忪，我没有太留心去看沿途风景。很想停下车来，不去上班，拿着我的本子，在海边写作。我好久没写作，我不能不让自己写作，一定要继续写吧。

嘿嘿，早上的报纸，娱乐版，2PM要来开唱啦！我也好想去看，毕竟是韩国 '最热' 的男子团体吧！哈哈哈~疯狂的哈韩女人。

今天啊，总算有一些东西做了。我宁愿忙死，也不要闲死。我喜欢有东西给我做，我不要当游手好闲的人啦。这样时间比较快过。

每天有规律的生活，有好有坏，我继续Tumblr，因为我疯狂的想念李起光了！

1/4 打工日记（1）

我现在是一名打工仔，早上八点去上班，下午五点放工。生活，简单不过，死板不过，规律不过。好吧，水瓶座忍过这一关就是无敌！苦尽甘来，最美味的是韩式烧烤，还有我的偶像男人们！ XDDDDDDDDDDD 我要开始存钱，我要先换电话，然后慢慢来存一大堆的钱！哈哈哈~~~

Samsung Galaxy S3 要出来了，我等！超级无敌的手机，等我。啊，不要说我乱用钱，我只是存钱来奖励自己！啊哈哈哈哈。今天在办公室里面，我新人报道，要学事情还几多下，可是就是很闲没事做。结果我坐到要睡觉。 @@ 不好意思。

好吧，我努力工作搏加薪，我要努力！！！！！加薪啊！

下班了，我驾车回家，去超市买一点蔬菜，沙拉菜，我明天的午餐。=)这条沿海的小路漂亮吧？