1/4 Last day of 2011

Hello, I am damn it disappointed now. I don't know what to say, I just want to stay alone. I feel I am more suitable to live alone.

I did care about the thing I promise to other, I never hurt others. I also don't know what I going to say, I feel so damn down now.

2011, it makes me a lot of different.

Thank you.

2011, it let me see my surrounding clearly.

Thank you.

2011, it prove to me who are the true friends.

Thank you.

2011, you gave me 3 crazy woman that I love.

Thank you very much. They shine up my life.

Shit you trouble! please go away from me! DAMN YOU PLEASE LAHHHH~

I will leave you all here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate you, FAT.

I hate you, FAKER!

I hate you, betrayer!

I hate you, promise breaker!

I hate you, trouble!

I hate you, sickness!

I hate you, barrier!

I hate you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1/4 bye bye 2011, hello 2012

Hello, I should say "hi" to 2012. 2012 seems like a horrible year, I don't know why, maybe because of the Mayans' prediction? Oh!
I promise myself to make a new year plan for 2012 so that I live happier and have some direction in my life.

First thing, new year wish.

1. Hope that everyone be healthy and safely.

2. World will not end in 2012.

3. No war.

4. No disaster.

5. Where is my prince? - Gikwang @_____@

6. wealth and health for my family.

Second thing, my plan.

1. Earn as many as I can.

2. Shape up my body.

3. Lose final 5 kg weight

4. Get what I want in my career.

5. Improve my writing skill.

6. Beautiful Show!

That's all for now, I think I will add on later. I just hope everything will be fine. A new starting for a year, I will be moving out from my castle again, going to a new city, start another journey in my life.

Just hope everything goes smoothly. Friends who want to see me, sorry, I will meet you after a longggg time.

Okie, new year new mood, I want to be more patient and optimistic for next year.

1/4 Sup Tulang - Bone Soup?

Good Evening! I was playing badminton with my friend just now. I am back with my healthy body and I was not satisfied with my condition now. Hello, I gained 2kg since last week. =( Super sad.

We went to a unknown place to have some drinks. I ordered a cup of tea, without any sugar. "Teh-O kosong". @___@ and I just realized Red tea that I usually drink will make my face look yellowish. What the H. Okay, I will only drink "sky juice".

Don't know why three of us suddenly have appetite, we ordered one bowl of "Sup Tulang". I miss that smell~ and the bone~~~ AHHHHHH~It was very different with the pictures' soup. The one we ate looked very ordinary without more vegetables. T___T the celery, tomatoes, and potatoes! OMG!

So tasty arrrr~ I am not regret eating it. HAHAHAHA~~ although this one is not the best. HAHAHA

But I am regret not watching Beast on Gayodaejun T____T.

1/4 Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to you all! I have the suckest ever Christmas in this year, I have to work during this festival, act like I am not a ordinary human. Hello, I also need festival break, although I am not a Christian.

I am not satisfied with myself, Damnn me I am so stupid !!! Hello, Santa, take my stomach away, so that I will not feel hungry all the time.

START DIET AGAIN!!!!

A little present for you all, Christmas pictures. <3

1/4 Lonely Christmas Eve

Hello, I am here again, still alive, breathing and eating. What the hell I gained 1kg during this week, the winter solstice, Christmas ... I just want to hold myself from food, but I failed. T___T WHY?

I swear to GOD, I want start again diet this week, with healthier food. I have to reach my target ASAP. !!! I just hate that, I can't rest in public holiday, suckest life ever. I want the autonomy back, I have the right! GRRRRRR......

Christmas Eve suppose to be warm and casual, but why I am so frustrated and clueless? Damn it I don't get more messages regarding to the Christmas. T___T Damn it I thought myself are important to everyone.

Shit me.

I just having a very simple make up tutorial for myself. I have no talent on make up. I am sucks. HAHAHAHA. I almost gone crazy because of the stupid mascara, I don't know how to make my eye lashes look longer, attractive and natural.

I am stupid.

And I realized my face is too bright. OMG the skin tone didn't match my neck! YERRR~ super sucks. I also realized the lip gloss, super ugly. @@ shouldn't bought that kind of glossy thing, very terrible.

My Christmas Eve just wasted like that, I should be walking on Bukit Bintang street, observing people and feel the Christmas. Pity me. I faced my lappie, write my article and looking at darling Gikwang.

I was so pain when I was watching to Beast Music Bank special performance. Gikwang was sitting on a chair aside the stage. TT Poor Gikwang work so hard. HEART PAIN. TT

MERRY CHRISTMAS to my Darling, to me, to my friends, FAMILY ... <3 I love myself and you all.

1/4 Present for myself

My sis bought me a handkerchief. Stitch!!!! AHHHHHHHH~

I went Watson, I bought myself Neutrogena mask! Hydro boost!

My cousin came in my room when I was surfing internet. I caught her and took selca with me. HAHAHAHA

1/4 Bunch of Chinese songs

Hello, there is a very long time I din't blog about C-Pop. My idol- JJ Lin releases his album every winter time, awww~ I like the surprises that he made for his fans.

I love the mv so much as it took place in Switzerland. The scenes are very nice !!! And the phrases used in the MV were super touched and made sense.

It is great to listen his new style in singing. I love it. His complete album will be released on 31st December!

And the second song in my list is Claire Kuos' song. I don't know how is the translated songs' name, but it means "When your are with me, you thinkin about her". This song is super duper make me think a lot. I don't know why.

Her album will fully release in 25th December. Christmas! Who send me her present as Christmas, I will love him/her forever! HAHAH

Oh, another song recently appear in my MP3 is OST song. I like the way the composer present the song. The lyric is simple and fine. But I like the song, because the composer caught the feeling to the lyric.

I bet that if the composer just simply compose it, I bet this song won't be in my MP3 list. I like it. <3



And last song for this month, Soda Greens' song. I am okay with the band. But this song is super meaningful and it makes me think about my life. Thanks Luyian shared this song with me and I started crying when I first watched the mv.

Some people can't catch the meaning, but I caught it. And I cried.

1/4 Self-Value

Hello peeps, I am back. The one way ticket din't works, so I back to here, recharge and fly again. =) I am fine.

I was looking for Padini Concept store When I was in City Square. I was so brave that I wanted to go Tebrau City from Johor city. And when I noticed the bus actually pass by City Square, I jump out from the bus. HAHAHAHAH.....

Nice shopping time! I realised I am only wearing Size 6 and Size M for the jeans now! Is it the cutting big? @@ I was so shocked when I realise the jeans I tried on was 6 !!! I almost cried in the fitting room. How fool I am.

The clothes I picked all having 50% discount! OMG! I was so enjoyed in those price.

Because of some reason, I have to start to learn make up from now. I know I am looking good enough without make up. But the world is super reality, I have to wear make up to make myself presentable in front of people. Sucks world.

Luckily I found Tony Moly finally available in Malaysia! OMG! I went to Nature Republic, the sales girl just ignore me as I looked very simple and ugly. D= How dare they judge people just like that?

And I turned to Tony Moly, the sale girl was friendly and she answered my question patiently. She is sweet, and that was the good attitude to face customers. Give her a Facebook "like". HAHAHAHAHA

I seek for her opinion and I bought a mascara, eyeliner and a BB cream. I had tried it once when I got back to home. I just wonder how can the girls put so thick make up on their face? I applied the eyeliner, and look like nothing. Mascara, I am not pro on it. BB cream, how much I gonna apply?!

Then I am the Tony Moly member. I got their member card while I purchased their products up to certain value. The gift is so cute. I love the pens, cute and nice for writing.

And I found out, this is the eyeliner. nice to use, very water-prof, very hard to remove. =(

And now I know, how much that my value is. infinity! I love myself, I bought myself the things that can make me better. <3

1/4 One way ticket

I bought the one-way-ticket to my dream. It is not expensive, and it gives me hopes. I hope I am on my way, on the track.

I am taking bus tomorrow morning, I am prepared well with myself and my mind set. I only left my formal shoes. WHERE IS IT?!

I only can go for once, I must success in this chance. I have to find where is my shoes first. I have no idea is it my dad hide it?

Oh, please, I need a shoes. Formal shoes.

1/4 1st face powder for me

I was so dumb in make up,Sorry, I am 0 level in make up. because I never make up. I bought myself a mini face powder. Hmm... I am no idea what is it for, and I just want it makes my face colour look better. Ouch, I just try face powder, not foundation.

If I will putting on make up on my face, I will only put on powder, lip balm and eyeliner. NO MORE. I don't want my face like a colour palette

. Horrible!

HAHAHAHAHA, I have no choice to leave my face like that, I should packaging myself and sell myself! HAHAHAHAHAHA~ I believe in future that I will be better. I want try my best for every chance from now on.

I only spent RM7 for my face powder. Simple is beauty. =)

And I bought oat cookies. I love the packaging! So cute! Strawberry & blackcurrant Oat cookies. So nice =D I admit the purpose I bought this packaging was because of the tin. HAHAHAHHA.

<3 is in the air~

1/4 Officially in love with ma DREAM

Hello, I admit that I like to dream so much. That is why I am always dreaming, like a fish, swim in the bowl, and imagine that is a deep sea. How silly that I am.

Enjoyed the badminton time with my secondary schoolmates. I did know that they are nice enough, at least they will not stab you from behind. Some times they will, but in their friendly way. I am so glad that I can think again and change my perception about them.

My mood was so good, I felt like want to get drunk. Crazy. I was planing to go to the playground and play the swing, but seems no one interested on it. Maybe I like the feeling of flying in the air? But unfortunately I will feel dizzy when I stay so long on the swing. Stupid ...

Actually now I am waiting for my hair to dry, it is 1.30am. Good morning. I am so happy that my dream was calling me and make me feel high. I was smiling all the way in office, OMG. I ate some KOKO KRUNCH, and it made my tongue itchy. TT How come.

You know, I did enjoy people telling me that I am slim and look nice now. I am so obsess now, with myself, my dream and my talent. I am not perfect, I am just who I am. People, don't ignore me, I will shine brightly in future.

I envy the one who enjoy the hapiness now, but I will work harder to achieve what I want. Don't think I am nothing, I will make myself become everything. Currently looking for someone who knows the real me. Thanks myself.

1/4 Dreaming

Angel brought a chance for me. Thanks father. Hope it, sincerely. Angel, bring all those stuffs for me. I need more luck, I need this chance, badly.

I love the fact of hope, it means everyone is looking on me. I have the chance to glow. Brighter and brighter in the future. I can see the clear sky now, I am waiting for the stars and the moonlight.

The lake is calm, night just beautiful. Everything is quiet and easy.

I love this song recently, Dreaming. <3

Chase my dream, I want fly high!

1/4 What is love?

I am so curious about love in a relationship. Seriously. I never know, because I never tried. HAHAHAHAHAHA

I heard of a lot of love story. Puppy love, deep deep love, windy love, soft drink love, ... hmmm .... they are just the stranger for me, nothing special but curious. errr...

Just wonder how people love other? Some of them not really understand themselves, but how they gonna understand other and love other? huh? CURIOUS. Some relationship end up with misunderstood and disagreement... How good if everything is clear.

Some times I just wanna laugh at the people who think "love" is very easy and simple. Yeap, love is as simple as a kindergarten maths, but in a complexion way.

LOVE include your friends, your family,your partner,your pets, your stuffs, your everything. AND YOURSELF. How far did you understand about love?

你们都很肤浅！

1/4 Christmas A-Pink My My

A warmly month. I love Christmas. I love the feeling. I love everything in December!

A-Pink released their new mini album recently, obviously they are matching the Christmas day, the rhythm is super Christmas. This song is nice, I like it!

Eun Ji is getting prettier, but how come I see her is stronger? HAHAHAHAHA It's okay, I like her. Other members also getting prettier, I think they will concur the KPOP in future too, like SNSD. Some of the member have to improve their vocal...

I like the shorts! YAHHHHH~

IU also made her comeback in Music bank, her facial expression when she is singing is zero. Like usual, zero. I can't deny that her vocal is great, just the way she perform, should be more sweet and sweet. But, I like the previous chubby IU. =(

Her album is nice for me, but I like the songs with more beats. I don't know why. Like Beast, 4minutes, G.NAs' songs were fulfil my needed.(Partially)

I was writing my new article just now. I change my direction, now concentrate on my story, then I will doing other articles too. I just hope my time is fully used. I love Beast niaaaaaaa~ As usual, I still in love with the Gikwang shii. I just wonder why he always act like a pabo in drama?

Gosh, he is cute! But Yoon siyoon so man!

1/4 JJ Lin ComeBack

Nothing much to say, as usual, he is my idol, JJ Lin. Now he is Come Back! With his new album. I am awaiting for his new songs! I think he can do it well!!!

Forever my best Male Chinese Singer. He is awesome with his vocal! <3

His new albums' photo are so nice! I like all!!!

1/4 Trouble Maker

I watched the new paring yesterday. 4Minutes Hyunah and Beast Hyunseung. Gorgeous pairing <3. My bias is Gikwang, so Hyunseung pair with Hyunah is okay for me. XDDDDD

And they kissed on the MAMA stage today! HAWT!!!!!

Teaser!

1/4 Panda eyes, Crazy nights

It was so fun when we gathered. I have no idea what thing tied 4 of us together, just wonder how it goes. It had been a very long time (only 1 month ++ ==") we din't met each other, so kept acting crazy when we were "on" the mood of going crazy.

OMG, I don't know what am I talking about and I am damn it tired. Just feel want to stick with my lappie and produce some nice articles. This might be a difficult time for me after the graduation. I don't know why I think like that.

Okay, I spent my whole KL trip with my lovely Beauty members. I love them very much because we can laugh like crazy niaaaa. @@ weird.

The first thing when I arrived in KL, I went to BB and walking around, and we all met at Pavillion. I love Padini! XDDD

The second day, convocation. It was quite awkward that I din't bring my family to go. When I looked at the others' people family with joyful expression and taking care of their daughters and sons, damn it I was so envy and feel like "never mind, it just me."

YSY,Peipei and I took some funny pictures. We did like to make ourself ugly. =D

We went to One Utaman right after our convocation, with Steffi and Lily. Nandos' was something funny. It was the first time I had my meal in Nandos', just like the moment when we went crazy there. Yea, always. And we went to sing some songs until 4am.

So unlucky I drank coffee, like drugs. It made me dizzy and feel like wanna puke. Awful feeling. No more coffee. The singing session end @ 4am and we sent Lily leader back to her home. YSY and I stayed @ Steffis' home for 1 hour like that, and we went back to Charissas' place.

Leader Lily was daebak!

I ran here and there and I went Steffis' convocation. We were facing a very serious problem after that- we don't know where to go after that. YSY, Steffi and I 你看我 我看你 don't know where to go. Leader was at home, so 3 of us very "chi ngoi".

And the funniest thing was, we went to the park and played in the playground. And we ranked by a 9 years old JB girl. OMG. OMG. horrible! I don't know I just like to chat nonsense with kids, and tell something weird. @@

I don' know how to end this diary, just want to say, my Beauty members are the best! XDDD

1/4 Like Crazy

It makes me thinking about 2AM song . Yeah, start from 6pm onward I will be the one who is crazy of everything. (OMG, I don't know what I am talking about)

I am so glad that are some friends like my articles in my lovely blog. So touching when someone tell you "I like your article" and I started tearing in front f my lappie.

Yes, I am crazy.

Gonna off to my lovely KL to attend my convocation. It is quite meaningless without my family. I promise I will get another chance to make them proud of me, not just bacause of my academy or something have to depend on them.

I am trying my best to write some articles. I know it is very difficult for me to have a good chance because I always lack of luck. My friend told me about that, and I think so. hmmm ...

Hello, God, can you see me? I need some luck to help me success. *jump jump and waving to the sky*

I should remind myself, my soul is renewing everyday.

1/4 A little card from Cindy Onnie

Hello, this is the second letter I received in this week. It is kind of warm hearted I received my dear 친구. Oh, I love you all. Onnie said she can't find a post card so she posted me something. =) So happy to received your card here!

Fly far away from Hong Kong all the way to Malaysia. I love it.

Onnie, you have a cute writing too. Your writing like spaghetti, look yummy. @@ I can't believe I describe peoples' writing using food. @@ terrible woman.

I should start my article now. I'm gonna work harder on my writing, I am waiting for my luck and chance. I hope they are coming very soon! and my dear kwanggie! OMG~ I have no luck since I was born in the fuckin world.

Compare to others, I am super "black". So I am waiting for "Red" now!

1/4 I have a leader called Lily

Finally, I received my leaders' letter. When I hold it, it is feel like a parcel. @@ Other members received it early in this week, only me, received it just now. Poor late.

Our lovely leader, Lily. Her writing is so cute, like noodle, can eat. @@

As she said that her letter is very ugly and simple, but I think it is warm heart letter niaa~

So cute that she sent me Gikwanggies' socks. I like it so much! XDDD

Thanks Leader Lily, I love you.

Another thing for today, I went to bank to take some money for my new racquet. I saw a little girl selling some "kuih" infront of the bank. The weather was bad, and she still have many going to sell, I bought one from her. I think this is what I can help her. =(

1/4 headache

Suddenly, like something knock on my head. So pain, so blur~ OMG who can help me?

1/4 Fairness

I can't deny the Fairness in this world is very limited. I can feel it all the time. People look pretty, I am not; People are smart, I am dump; People are rich, I am poor. All of those things occur like a natural born.

I have no idea what I was talking about. Ignore me.

Feel tired with those stupid things and I hope that everything goes smooth and reach my target. Thanks.

Goof night.

1/4 Grand opening of my new blog

Hello, I re-open my another blog named:

在我和他之间的灵感

[Click it to enter]

All about my Chinese articles and stories. I hope that many people will like it and go there to read my articles. Thankiu~~

1/4 Friend or Lover?

Hello, nice badminton playing with Luyian Sophia. =) Exercise makes refreshed my mind! Yooo~~ I logged in to my Facebook and found my beauty friend posted a music video, Huh Gaks' mv. His songs are just nice and full of sadness TT.

First mv I watched was ft. Beast Junhyung. The mv was fine but the song is just nice. This is why he won music bank once. Compete to others famous groups, his song is just very strong in popularity as he has a really good vocal.

And the part mv, I just get in a very depress and sad mood. =( Junhyung and the lead character die. TT OMG a pretty sad mv! My heart just bleeding like hell when I keep thinking of Junhyung scarified himself to help his buddy and the lead male character just die like that, horrible! TT

Hope you will like it! I hope myself is getting better. I love myself. I better don't love the people around me. XDDDD I love gikwang enough!

1/4 Gikwang spamm Makes me happie!

I don't know what to say. I hope world will be better after I hope it become better. @@ Ough! I just remembered about Mv! Hahahahaha~ Go and google it out! It's not tiring to be a crazy fangirl, but it's tired to going to work. Zzzzz ... How good if my job is a fangirl and the income keep on coming?!

Who don't wish. =="

Start my mini Gikwang spammmmmmmm~ I can't stop staring on him because he is gorgeous!

End with a DooDoo leader selca. I like this photo so much! Doodoo not bad too! I like him in G.NAs' MV! OMO!

1/4 엄마, 니가 너무 보고 싶어.

Anyone can give me a warm hug? I am very sorry to myself that I make myself so tired. Not physically but mentally. I don't know is it my fault that I felt tired recently? I am so frustrated while I can't make myself feel better and I failed to be patient.

I try to not to complain, but I can't. I am so sorry to the one who actually listen to my complain, very thank you. I don't want to complain, but I have no way to release my stress. Writing? It is only for me to express the beauty of words.

So poor that I have no way to reduce my stress. Where are my stress comes from? Job? It's okay for me, but I have a more ideal job. BF? Sorry, I don't have a love one. I only don't understand my dad, why he likes to scold and mumbling me. He is a good father, he do care us. But some how he keep scolding me and it makes me very frustrated. I try myself best not to care about it, but very difficult!

If he really change this bad habit, I think I will prefer to stay at home. I really don't understand why I always being scold. I am 20 year-old, I know what I am doing, please don't worry. Last time mom used to reading my blog, she knew what I was thinking. I hope my dad will surf internet too. TT

When I was studied in KL, I talk slowly and softly. Since I back to this place, I become more hot tempered. I try to be patient when talking to them, but I just don't know why they are like want to quarrel like that. I don't like this way, it makes me old faster. Since I back to here, I'm mentally ill, physically look old.

I try to be happy, but how? I can't do the thing I like, I can't talk slowly and softly to my dad, I can't do the thing I like and it is not harmful. What is the meaning of my life? I am now become lifeless and colourless. So sad to see myself like that, because I can't do anything. My dad is stubborn like what I don't know, he will never listen to advices and it makes me look like a useless daughter.

Yes, I am. I can't give my family wealth, I can't give them happiness, I can't give them a comfortable environment and life. YES, I'M USELESS.

Stay at home, I feel I am a rubbish. I can write nice articles, I can do many things. But ...

Who can rescues me? I miss my mom so much right now. I wish I can hug her tightly, and tell her that how stress I am , how useless I am now.

I HOPE I WILL FORGET THIS AND ESCAPE FROM THIS SUCKS CONDITION. I try to hold it. Hope I can control my mind. I am so sick, I miss mom! I feel like want to hug someone right now.

I am going to bang the wall, jog until I can't breath to reduce this kind of useless feeling.

1/4 Me too, Flower!

Hello, it's relax time. I hope I will happier in this month =) just make me smile~ When I entered to my Tumblr, I found something make me smile. It's you! Lee Gikwang! Hahahahaha~ Ignore that I'm kinda crazy now. I now only know that Mr. Lee Gikwang is casting for a new drama. named Me Too, Flower!

I know this kind of name is weird. Hehehehe~ According to his Twitter, I saw he was in police uniform, he is a handsome police flower boy in the drama! OMG! I can't stop thinking about the new drama! ps:even my old drama haven't finish yet. =="

What is also very excited is Yoon Shi Yoon also in the drama! He is the lead male character, but I don't know why his image look kinda old and flower. =( I don't like the hair style. I like his acting in Bread, Love and Dream I don't know why the WikiDrama named it as Baker King, Kim Tak Goo. It is a super nice drama.

Oh, it make up my day. I've been a very long time didn't be a fangirl like this. Looking forward to my dearest Gikwang-shii new drama. I love his cuteness in My Princess But it is undeniable that Song Seung Hyun was getting more handsome and charismatic!

I just can't wait for the new drama! Yoon Shi Yoon and Lee Gikwang AHHHHHHHHHHHH!

1/4 my first SALARY

Hello, I am here, still alive. Finally I got my first long term job salary. I can't believe that I can work for 1 month! How amazing I am no more feeling with my recent life. Life is colourless without Korean boys! ARGH~

I was so fool, I dreamed something last night, but I couldn't remember what I dreamed. I feel scared in the dream, all the way SCARING of something. I don't know what is that, feel like it was a person. OUGH~ what is that?!

I love the spirulina crackers in my office. <3 I had bought a new collagen crackers, hope it is yummy. =) Starting of a new month, I am looking forward to my Convocation Ceremony. Because I can meet up with Lily leader, YSY and Steffi!!!!

I miss you all so much!

I was playing with my poor finger in the office. See, it was almost purple in colour. @@ It was painful!

Start using a skin care product, hope it is effective to reduce the tiredness-look on my face. Lift it up yea! I hope I will be look younger later. =)

1/4 LIZARD Grrrrrrrr

I hate lizard like I hate the fuckin annoying things in my life. There are so much useless point in my life and I am so tired to bother them. I like freedom, but I never have it. LOLOLOLOLOL

And WTH I am? So useless to let myself live like that. And even the fuckin lizard fell on my head. ARGH! I'll kill all the lizards in this word!

I hate people control my action, it's already out of their limitation. I am so disappointed with myself that I end up with this depress life. I have no way to release stress, HOW?

I like to mumbling, but at least I do not harm myself! Just let me to be the person I want to be, just let me do the things I like. I'll not let myself to be dreamless like a zoombie walkin without soul and thought.

That's me. Forgive that I'm selfish with my beautiful dream. I love myself and everyone, I'll not hurt or harm anyone. It's clueless to let me like this. I wrote some articles, but I lack of inspirations. How can I find them out and play with the words?

MOM, I LOVE YOU. Please let everyone loves me back, I loves them too, just not as deep as family and the boys I liked. So sorry to say that, please let others to love me. I need time to full fill my dream and future. Thanks.

And then, I hate lizards!!!!!!!

=Finish of mumbling full with tiredness =

1/4 Diet Diary

Failed. I don't know what happened to me. I am so serious about my weight management plan, but I failed it everydday. WTF. I found something on net.

1，不要老想着你每天绝食为了减肥，什么都不要想，就不吃就好了。饿的时候去睡觉，找人聊天，或者畅想自己瘦了以后的样子，多看看模特的图片。

2，减肥期间，不要想着过了这20天就可以大吃大喝了，你要想着你从此就要做个瘦美人了，不再贪恋美食，一身轻了。20天结束的时候，慢慢增加食量，一开始最好喝点粥吃点好消化的东西，否则胃一下吃不消的。给自己留有5斤的反弹区间，减肥完成后，反弹5斤是正常的，别给自己心里压力，别看一反弹就自暴自弃大吃大喝了。

3，减肥期间，告诉自己，不吃苦中苦，难为人上人。你吃了别人吃不了的苦，就能做成别人做不到的事情。

4，“胖是懒惰和馋的表现，是自我控制力差的表现！如果你连用自己的手拿起勺子，挖起多少饭，再送进自己的嘴都控制不住，还能做成什么事？！”

5，如果你真想去到罗马，无论你选择水路还是陆路，最后总能到达，前提是，你真的想去。

6，当你对美好身材的渴望远远大于你对食物的渴望，你就可以成功减肥。减不下来那是因为你对痩的渴望还不够强烈。

7，拒绝不了食物的诱惑，你永远只是一个胖子。

8，没必要羡慕那些瘦下来的人，等你瘦下来了，人家同样也会羡慕你。

9，能改变你的只有你自己，没人能救得了你。

10，与其花大把的银子花在请私教上，不如拿这些钱去做spa，买漂亮的衣服。

11，对食物抱着感恩的心态，即使只是一粒葡萄干。也要很小口很小口的吃

12，把没减肥的好处、减肥的好处、没减肥的坏处以及减肥的坏处。写在表格上。

1/4 一步一脚印之《西南十九的秘密》节选

哈咯，晚上好。其实我在文字里打滚了好多年，从来就没有什么好的作品能够给大家分享。TT 悲哀啊。

自从工作以后，每下班回到家里坐在电脑本子前就想努力写作，想把自己的文字风格分享出去。《西南十九的秘密》写后，Pizza是我的第一位读者，他说很喜欢我写的文，虽然用词简单，但是描写恰当，很不错。我的第二位读者，Cindy Onnie，他说文写得很好，很庆幸自己能够明白华文。他说要读第二次再去感受文章的意义，我还在等待回复。第三位读者，LuYian， 他说我的描写能让他看见大海，很舒服。OMO，能够让读者看见故事里的景物，我的荣幸啊。

之前和小学级任在面书聊过一小段话，她问我是否还会和文字打交道？我回答道，是的。只要我一天还能写，我还会继续写，哪怕人家认为我的文很烂，水准低。

之前还在执著着自己的文是否应该把词汇加深？可是我做不到，我认识的字太少了，只能以我仅有的华文水平来呈现我的文。

《西南十九的秘密》完成以后的一个星期，我很惊叹我当时能够写下这文的心情。有好多的意境是我现在想像不到的，但是那个时候的我写下来了。文中有几句我很喜欢的，

1。当我坐在窗沿上，密秘的方向，是我的视野，是你的影子。

我不是一个诗情画意的人，可是以我当时的灵感，我的确是这样的人。要看看我在写作的时候想什么？No way， 我不怎么公开我写作时候的情愫。

2。娃娃兔和我很像，小小的眼睛，想看大大的世界；懦弱的心，只向着你。

这一句，有够吓人，很肉麻咧。可是我好喜欢！

还在想，要不要po全文。

1/4 New recipe Kimchii

Hello everyone, kindly introduce my new recipe kimchii~ I made it today, will finish the process by tomorrow. New recipe kimchii only available in Wings' home.

Went to the mini market with my dad after working. Sigh... I already get used to the environment and time. I know it is not enough. I thinkin of macaroni suddenly, with all tomatoes !!! OMG

The radish is so salty, hope they method will make it better. Will try the kimchii radish tomorrow~~ I can't wait for the kimchii fried eggs. TT OMG it is so tasty!

Wait for the pretty kimchii photo~

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1/4 Love you before loving myself

I realised my hands was so dry. TT they look sicked. I don't know what happen to them. Izzit possible my working place too dry? I apply lotion on my body every night and apply the sunblock to work too! Gosh~ soooo girlish!

I can't believe that I really take care of myself now. Protect myself from sun, avoid myself from oily food ... The only thing I haven't do is, EAT LESS. Okay, I eat less, but im still eating dinner. WTH Giving myself last chance to delete "dinner".

See, it's dry!

Then I went to Watson to buy myself a Vaselin Hand Creme. I can't found the Bee Honey Hand Creme TT They don't have stock. Sigh ...

This one not bad also, I can try it. I will use it for a period, will tell you guys how it works. =D

I can't deny that I am a crazy person.