1/4 Beer

Sorry, no more beer. I must turn into alcohol-free. YEAH. !!! I threw the drunken Wing, and I found a new Wing. Although today my news was bad. =(

This is what, the consequence of drunk. LOL.

I miss the mint rabbit on my phone. Dear rabbit, where are u? T^T

1/4 Present from my beloved Grandma

I received a priceless gift from my late grandma. It's her diamond ring. My aunt gave me the ring after we dinner at her home, it was so shocked.

The gift is for the eldest grandchild. I am the eldest grandchild. I am officially 21 in the real age nut my heart is always 15, keep young to fulfill my dream and everything.

I must do my best in everything. Thanks grandma, I love you.

Mum, I hope you are watching at me. I am trying out my best for many things.

1/4 in the Dragon Year

Hello everyone, I am back from my grandmas' home! So glad that my family and I are safe and healthy. I am wishing for a healthy and prosperous year, I wish to be tougher and stronger. I want to be a carrier woman! Hahahahahaha.

I just received my album when I was arrived at home. <3 So happy niaa~ HAHAHAHAHAHAHA...

I am going to stay at my grandmas' home to find a better job. So stay tune for my new job and new life. I love the facts of new things in a new year. Good start.

I am very thank my aunts to buy me a necklace. Thanks you all, and all my cousins in grandmas' there, Thanks for the Secret Recipe Chocolate Indulgence Cake. Thanks you all.

1/4 Dragon Year

Hi! I am ready to celebrate the Chinese New Year, and also ready for my new working life in a new place. I just hope everything goes fine and smoothly. Please let me to be the lucky one in this year and following year.

I am a person who not very into Chinese New Year. I don't like the New Year Songs taht give me a very noisy impression. I have no idea why I will think like that. I just interested in food and some interesting facts in Chinese New Year.

Like my dialect, the people in my far away home town. they will eat dumpling during Chinese New Year. Isn't the dumplings look like the "Yuen Bao"? It bring the meaning of wealthiness. I like dumplingsssss, I can eat more to 20 dumplings in a meal.





Secondly, the New Year Cake, "Nian Gao" which mean there must be some achievement in a year. Like its' meaning, I will work hard to achieve what I want.

The glutinous, "Tang Yuen" meaning of "reunion" I like the sweet soup which contain ginger and crystal sugar. It is super nice in hot served.

Lastly, wish you guys have a gorgeous Dragon Year! Dreams come true!

1/4 Kimchi Day 김치 대

I made some Kimchi today, woke up in the morning I felt like "nothing". I don't know what kind of feeling was that. I cleaned all the fans in my home, I washed blankets, swept the floor... I was just like a Cinderella. =(

Like what Ms. Steffi said, I am a princess who have a strict daddy. Yea, I have. As my dad agree that I better work at out side, I wish I can bring them a lot of things.

My dad bought 2 big long cabbages back today. He said "make some kimchi, please." @@" Appa, are you going to accept a Korean son-in-law like Gikwang? XDDDDD Hope so. The cabbage looks gorgeous! Greenish leaves and whitey stem.

Gorgeous cabbage. HAHAHAHAHA.

Snow from the heaven, on the cabbage! Actually it was the rough salt, process to dehydrate the cabbage. Snowie on the cabbage~ so cute!

When I was dehydrated the cabbage, I realise my dad wasn't bought me the carrots and onion leaves. ==" gosh~ I went out and bought some, and costed me RM2.05. Orange and green, colourful.

I went to Watsons, bought a mask. When I want to use it, I REALISED IT WAS A MENS' MASK. Stupid me!

See, the dehydrated cabbage. Giant cabbage become slimmer and thin now! =( not cute at all and look old.

Finally my kimchi done! =D weakness for my kimchi for this batch is a little bit salty. I know it is because the fish sauce. =( hope the outcome and the taste is okay.

Wait for another 2 days to let it fermented. Stay tune!

1/4 Take care of papa, not eye candy

Hello, good evening! Today had a nice shopping day with my family. Just want to buy some clothes for my sister. We visited to my mums' grave, time flies very fast, it almost 2 years.

I miss Mama so much.

Just want to tell Mama, I finished my study, I really diet. Hope Mama you know what am I doing right now, what kind of guy I am liking (actually is Gikwang) =D

I lazy to apply my hydro boost gel during last few days, and my skin is super dry today! Damn me the lazy woman! ugh!!! Should start diet tomorrow.

My dad bought me a camel colour pants and a nice top. I want to pay my stuffs, but he want to buy me new clothes, maybe he is thinking that will be the present for me to start a new job? Thanks papa.

We bought a packet of rice and a box of mandarin oranges. I am so sorry I didn't take care of papa, always looking at "Gikwang" and my careless cause my papa fell from the stairs. T___T I am so sorry and feel embarrassed that I couldn't take care of papa.

I am useless.

I saw his leg was bleeding and the wound looked awful(it's very pain and serious for me). I was panic at that time, and feel very pain. Hello, he is my papa, sure I feel pain to see him fell down.

I swear to God, I will not be careless next time. I can see Gikwang at home niaaaa...

HAHAHHAHAHAHA

I want to buy some formal wear, but the time is limited, I give up. Gonna have some nice formal after few months working at Johor. By the way, I am happy today, I paid all the meals for my family and grocery. These are what I can do now.

Good Night<3 I really like him so much.

1/4 bye bye 2011, hello 2012

Hello, I should say "hi" to 2012. 2012 seems like a horrible year, I don't know why, maybe because of the Mayans' prediction? Oh!
I promise myself to make a new year plan for 2012 so that I live happier and have some direction in my life.

First thing, new year wish.

1. Hope that everyone be healthy and safely.

2. World will not end in 2012.

3. No war.

4. No disaster.

5. Where is my prince? - Gikwang @_____@

6. wealth and health for my family.

Second thing, my plan.

1. Earn as many as I can.

2. Shape up my body.

3. Lose final 5 kg weight

4. Get what I want in my career.

5. Improve my writing skill.

6. Beautiful Show!

That's all for now, I think I will add on later. I just hope everything will be fine. A new starting for a year, I will be moving out from my castle again, going to a new city, start another journey in my life.

Just hope everything goes smoothly. Friends who want to see me, sorry, I will meet you after a longggg time.

Okie, new year new mood, I want to be more patient and optimistic for next year.

1/4 Sup Tulang - Bone Soup?

Good Evening! I was playing badminton with my friend just now. I am back with my healthy body and I was not satisfied with my condition now. Hello, I gained 2kg since last week. =( Super sad.

We went to a unknown place to have some drinks. I ordered a cup of tea, without any sugar. "Teh-O kosong". @___@ and I just realized Red tea that I usually drink will make my face look yellowish. What the H. Okay, I will only drink "sky juice".

Don't know why three of us suddenly have appetite, we ordered one bowl of "Sup Tulang". I miss that smell~ and the bone~~~ AHHHHHH~It was very different with the pictures' soup. The one we ate looked very ordinary without more vegetables. T___T the celery, tomatoes, and potatoes! OMG!

So tasty arrrr~ I am not regret eating it. HAHAHAHA~~ although this one is not the best. HAHAHA

But I am regret not watching Beast on Gayodaejun T____T.

1/4 Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to you all! I have the suckest ever Christmas in this year, I have to work during this festival, act like I am not a ordinary human. Hello, I also need festival break, although I am not a Christian.

I am not satisfied with myself, Damnn me I am so stupid !!! Hello, Santa, take my stomach away, so that I will not feel hungry all the time.

START DIET AGAIN!!!!

A little present for you all, Christmas pictures. <3

1/4 Lonely Christmas Eve

Hello, I am here again, still alive, breathing and eating. What the hell I gained 1kg during this week, the winter solstice, Christmas ... I just want to hold myself from food, but I failed. T___T WHY?

I swear to GOD, I want start again diet this week, with healthier food. I have to reach my target ASAP. !!! I just hate that, I can't rest in public holiday, suckest life ever. I want the autonomy back, I have the right! GRRRRRR......

Christmas Eve suppose to be warm and casual, but why I am so frustrated and clueless? Damn it I don't get more messages regarding to the Christmas. T___T Damn it I thought myself are important to everyone.

Shit me.

I just having a very simple make up tutorial for myself. I have no talent on make up. I am sucks. HAHAHAHA. I almost gone crazy because of the stupid mascara, I don't know how to make my eye lashes look longer, attractive and natural.

I am stupid.

And I realized my face is too bright. OMG the skin tone didn't match my neck! YERRR~ super sucks. I also realized the lip gloss, super ugly. @@ shouldn't bought that kind of glossy thing, very terrible.

My Christmas Eve just wasted like that, I should be walking on Bukit Bintang street, observing people and feel the Christmas. Pity me. I faced my lappie, write my article and looking at darling Gikwang.

I was so pain when I was watching to Beast Music Bank special performance. Gikwang was sitting on a chair aside the stage. TT Poor Gikwang work so hard. HEART PAIN. TT

MERRY CHRISTMAS to my Darling, to me, to my friends, FAMILY ... <3 I love myself and you all.

1/4 Present for myself

My sis bought me a handkerchief. Stitch!!!! AHHHHHHHH~

I went Watson, I bought myself Neutrogena mask! Hydro boost!

My cousin came in my room when I was surfing internet. I caught her and took selca with me. HAHAHAHA

1/4 Bunch of Chinese songs

Hello, there is a very long time I din't blog about C-Pop. My idol- JJ Lin releases his album every winter time, awww~ I like the surprises that he made for his fans.

I love the mv so much as it took place in Switzerland. The scenes are very nice !!! And the phrases used in the MV were super touched and made sense.

It is great to listen his new style in singing. I love it. His complete album will be released on 31st December!

And the second song in my list is Claire Kuos' song. I don't know how is the translated songs' name, but it means "When your are with me, you thinkin about her". This song is super duper make me think a lot. I don't know why.

Her album will fully release in 25th December. Christmas! Who send me her present as Christmas, I will love him/her forever! HAHAH

Oh, another song recently appear in my MP3 is OST song. I like the way the composer present the song. The lyric is simple and fine. But I like the song, because the composer caught the feeling to the lyric.

I bet that if the composer just simply compose it, I bet this song won't be in my MP3 list. I like it. <3



And last song for this month, Soda Greens' song. I am okay with the band. But this song is super meaningful and it makes me think about my life. Thanks Luyian shared this song with me and I started crying when I first watched the mv.

Some people can't catch the meaning, but I caught it. And I cried.

1/4 Self-Value

Hello peeps, I am back. The one way ticket din't works, so I back to here, recharge and fly again. =) I am fine.

I was looking for Padini Concept store When I was in City Square. I was so brave that I wanted to go Tebrau City from Johor city. And when I noticed the bus actually pass by City Square, I jump out from the bus. HAHAHAHAH.....

Nice shopping time! I realised I am only wearing Size 6 and Size M for the jeans now! Is it the cutting big? @@ I was so shocked when I realise the jeans I tried on was 6 !!! I almost cried in the fitting room. How fool I am.

The clothes I picked all having 50% discount! OMG! I was so enjoyed in those price.

Because of some reason, I have to start to learn make up from now. I know I am looking good enough without make up. But the world is super reality, I have to wear make up to make myself presentable in front of people. Sucks world.

Luckily I found Tony Moly finally available in Malaysia! OMG! I went to Nature Republic, the sales girl just ignore me as I looked very simple and ugly. D= How dare they judge people just like that?

And I turned to Tony Moly, the sale girl was friendly and she answered my question patiently. She is sweet, and that was the good attitude to face customers. Give her a Facebook "like". HAHAHAHAHA

I seek for her opinion and I bought a mascara, eyeliner and a BB cream. I had tried it once when I got back to home. I just wonder how can the girls put so thick make up on their face? I applied the eyeliner, and look like nothing. Mascara, I am not pro on it. BB cream, how much I gonna apply?!

Then I am the Tony Moly member. I got their member card while I purchased their products up to certain value. The gift is so cute. I love the pens, cute and nice for writing.

And I found out, this is the eyeliner. nice to use, very water-prof, very hard to remove. =(

And now I know, how much that my value is. infinity! I love myself, I bought myself the things that can make me better. <3

1/4 One way ticket

I bought the one-way-ticket to my dream. It is not expensive, and it gives me hopes. I hope I am on my way, on the track.

I am taking bus tomorrow morning, I am prepared well with myself and my mind set. I only left my formal shoes. WHERE IS IT?!

I only can go for once, I must success in this chance. I have to find where is my shoes first. I have no idea is it my dad hide it?

Oh, please, I need a shoes. Formal shoes.

1/4 1st face powder for me

I was so dumb in make up,Sorry, I am 0 level in make up. because I never make up. I bought myself a mini face powder. Hmm... I am no idea what is it for, and I just want it makes my face colour look better. Ouch, I just try face powder, not foundation.

If I will putting on make up on my face, I will only put on powder, lip balm and eyeliner. NO MORE. I don't want my face like a colour palette

. Horrible!

HAHAHAHAHA, I have no choice to leave my face like that, I should packaging myself and sell myself! HAHAHAHAHAHA~ I believe in future that I will be better. I want try my best for every chance from now on.

I only spent RM7 for my face powder. Simple is beauty. =)

And I bought oat cookies. I love the packaging! So cute! Strawberry & blackcurrant Oat cookies. So nice =D I admit the purpose I bought this packaging was because of the tin. HAHAHAHHA.

<3 is in the air~

1/4 Dreaming

Angel brought a chance for me. Thanks father. Hope it, sincerely. Angel, bring all those stuffs for me. I need more luck, I need this chance, badly.

I love the fact of hope, it means everyone is looking on me. I have the chance to glow. Brighter and brighter in the future. I can see the clear sky now, I am waiting for the stars and the moonlight.

The lake is calm, night just beautiful. Everything is quiet and easy.

I love this song recently, Dreaming. <3

Chase my dream, I want fly high!

1/4 Panda eyes, Crazy nights

It was so fun when we gathered. I have no idea what thing tied 4 of us together, just wonder how it goes. It had been a very long time (only 1 month ++ ==") we din't met each other, so kept acting crazy when we were "on" the mood of going crazy.

OMG, I don't know what am I talking about and I am damn it tired. Just feel want to stick with my lappie and produce some nice articles. This might be a difficult time for me after the graduation. I don't know why I think like that.

Okay, I spent my whole KL trip with my lovely Beauty members. I love them very much because we can laugh like crazy niaaaa. @@ weird.

The first thing when I arrived in KL, I went to BB and walking around, and we all met at Pavillion. I love Padini! XDDD

The second day, convocation. It was quite awkward that I din't bring my family to go. When I looked at the others' people family with joyful expression and taking care of their daughters and sons, damn it I was so envy and feel like "never mind, it just me."

YSY,Peipei and I took some funny pictures. We did like to make ourself ugly. =D

We went to One Utaman right after our convocation, with Steffi and Lily. Nandos' was something funny. It was the first time I had my meal in Nandos', just like the moment when we went crazy there. Yea, always. And we went to sing some songs until 4am.

So unlucky I drank coffee, like drugs. It made me dizzy and feel like wanna puke. Awful feeling. No more coffee. The singing session end @ 4am and we sent Lily leader back to her home. YSY and I stayed @ Steffis' home for 1 hour like that, and we went back to Charissas' place.

Leader Lily was daebak!

I ran here and there and I went Steffis' convocation. We were facing a very serious problem after that- we don't know where to go after that. YSY, Steffi and I 你看我 我看你 don't know where to go. Leader was at home, so 3 of us very "chi ngoi".

And the funniest thing was, we went to the park and played in the playground. And we ranked by a 9 years old JB girl. OMG. OMG. horrible! I don't know I just like to chat nonsense with kids, and tell something weird. @@

I don' know how to end this diary, just want to say, my Beauty members are the best! XDDD

1/4 Like Crazy

It makes me thinking about 2AM song . Yeah, start from 6pm onward I will be the one who is crazy of everything. (OMG, I don't know what I am talking about)

I am so glad that are some friends like my articles in my lovely blog. So touching when someone tell you "I like your article" and I started tearing in front f my lappie.

Yes, I am crazy.

Gonna off to my lovely KL to attend my convocation. It is quite meaningless without my family. I promise I will get another chance to make them proud of me, not just bacause of my academy or something have to depend on them.

I am trying my best to write some articles. I know it is very difficult for me to have a good chance because I always lack of luck. My friend told me about that, and I think so. hmmm ...

Hello, God, can you see me? I need some luck to help me success. *jump jump and waving to the sky*

I should remind myself, my soul is renewing everyday.

1/4 A little card from Cindy Onnie

Hello, this is the second letter I received in this week. It is kind of warm hearted I received my dear 친구. Oh, I love you all. Onnie said she can't find a post card so she posted me something. =) So happy to received your card here!

Fly far away from Hong Kong all the way to Malaysia. I love it.

Onnie, you have a cute writing too. Your writing like spaghetti, look yummy. @@ I can't believe I describe peoples' writing using food. @@ terrible woman.

I should start my article now. I'm gonna work harder on my writing, I am waiting for my luck and chance. I hope they are coming very soon! and my dear kwanggie! OMG~ I have no luck since I was born in the fuckin world.

Compare to others, I am super "black". So I am waiting for "Red" now!

1/4 I have a leader called Lily

Finally, I received my leaders' letter. When I hold it, it is feel like a parcel. @@ Other members received it early in this week, only me, received it just now. Poor late.

Our lovely leader, Lily. Her writing is so cute, like noodle, can eat. @@

As she said that her letter is very ugly and simple, but I think it is warm heart letter niaa~

So cute that she sent me Gikwanggies' socks. I like it so much! XDDD

Thanks Leader Lily, I love you.

Another thing for today, I went to bank to take some money for my new racquet. I saw a little girl selling some "kuih" infront of the bank. The weather was bad, and she still have many going to sell, I bought one from her. I think this is what I can help her. =(